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You'll Miss Me When I'm Gone
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You'll Miss Me When I'm Gone
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"Heartfelt, deeply moving." —Buzzfeed
"Dark and thought-provoking." —Publishers Weekly
"A stunning debut." —VOYA

A poignant, lyrical debut novel about twins who navigate first love, their Jewish identity, and shocking results from a genetic test that determines their fate—whether they inherited their mother's Huntington's disease.
Eighteen-year-old twins Adina and Tovah have little in common besides their ambitious nature. Viola prodigy Adina yearns to become a soloist—and to convince her music teacher he wants her the way she wants him. Overachiever Tovah awaits her acceptance to Johns Hopkins, the first step on her path toward med school and a career as a surgeon.

But one thing could wreck their carefully planned futures: a genetic test for Huntington's, a rare degenerative disease that slowly steals control of the body and mind. It's turned their Israeli mother into a near stranger and fractured the sisters' own bond in ways they'll never admit. While Tovah finds comfort in their Jewish religion, Adina rebels against its rules.

When the results come in, one twin tests negative for Huntington's. The other tests positive.

These opposite outcomes push them farther apart as they wrestle with guilt, betrayal, and the unexpected thrill of first love. How can they repair their relationship, and is it even worth saving?

From debut author Rachel Lynn Solomon comes a luminous, heartbreaking tale of life, death, and the fragile bond between sisters.
"Heartfelt, deeply moving." —Buzzfeed
"Dark and thought-provoking." —Publishers Weekly
"A stunning debut." —VOYA

A poignant, lyrical debut novel about twins who navigate first love, their Jewish identity, and shocking results from a genetic test that determines their fate—whether they inherited their mother's Huntington's disease.
Eighteen-year-old twins Adina and Tovah have little in common besides their ambitious nature. Viola prodigy Adina yearns to become a soloist—and to convince her music teacher he wants her the way she wants him. Overachiever Tovah awaits her acceptance to Johns Hopkins, the first step on her path toward med school and a career as a surgeon.

But one thing could wreck their carefully planned futures: a genetic test for Huntington's, a rare degenerative disease that slowly steals control of the body and mind. It's turned their Israeli mother into a near stranger and fractured the sisters' own bond in ways they'll never admit. While Tovah finds comfort in their Jewish religion, Adina rebels against its rules.

When the results come in, one twin tests negative for Huntington's. The other tests positive.

These opposite outcomes push them farther apart as they wrestle with guilt, betrayal, and the unexpected thrill of first love. How can they repair their relationship, and is it even worth saving?

From debut author Rachel Lynn Solomon comes a luminous, heartbreaking tale of life, death, and the fragile bond between sisters.
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  • Rachel Lynn Solomon lives, writes, and tap dances in Seattle, Washington. She is the author of two young adult novels, You'll Miss Me When I'm Gone and Our Year of Maybe. You can find her online at RachelSolomonBooks.com and on Twitter at @RLynn_Solomon.
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  • Kirkus

    October 15, 2017
    When the genetic lottery strikes a family unevenly, only one twin gets a death sentence. Fraternal twins Tovah and Adina are both ambitious, but the similarity ends there. Tovah's an AP student who wants to go to Johns Hopkins for pre-med, while Adina's a talented viola player who's conservatory-bound. Tovah hides her curves, while Adina wears "Siren" lipstick and sexy dresses. And Tovah's tested negative for the Huntington's disease gene, while Adina has tested positive. These bilingual, white, Jewish sisters have watched their Israeli mother's health deteriorate from the disease since her diagnosis four years ago. Now their mother's memory loss, mood swings, and physical tics seem like a grim foretelling of Adina's eventual condition. The once-close twins can't support each other in this terrible time, as they've been barely speaking since Adina sabotaged Tovah back in sophomore year. The point of view alternates, and readers watch religiously observant Tovah begin her first flirtation while sexually active and irreligious Adina seduces her 25-year-old viola teacher. The chilly prose depicts a family that's been dysfunctional for so long, and Adina approaches her grim solution to the Huntington's death sentence with such aloofness, that neither their pain nor her epiphany evokes much feeling. While the fraught sibling relationship rings true, the narrative is ultimately too detached for the subject matter. (Fiction. 14-18)

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  • School Library Journal

    November 1, 2017

    Gr 10 Up-Fraternal twins, Adina and Tovah, are driven young women with very definite plans for the future. Adina is a viola prodigy with a dream of becoming a soloist. Tovah's heavy AP class load for the last four years is about to pay off with her early acceptance to Johns Hopkins University, the first step in her path to becoming a surgeon. But there's a darkness looming that threatens to destroy those bright futures. On the eve of their 18th birthday, Adina wants Tovah to release her from the promise she made years ago-the promise to take the genetic test for Huntington's Disease. But Tovah insists-especially since she believes that Adina still owes her for past transgressions. The twins know firsthand what Huntington's does to a person's mind and body. They have been living with the specter of the disease since their Israeli mother was diagnosed four years earlier, and they have a 50-50 chance of developing it. When the results come in, one of them has tested positive. Solomon has created two distinct voices for Adina and Tovah. Neither girl is perfect, but both are realistically drawn as young women on the cusp of adulthood struggling with grief, guilt, and anxiety while trying to figure out their place in the world. The twins' use of profanity, exploration of their sexuality, and underage drinking helps make the characters three-dimensional. VERDICT A solid offering for fans of realistic drama. Adina and Tovah's story is relatable to those who have had to pivot when their carefully made plans abruptly change.-Elaine Baran Black, Georgia Public Library Service, Atlanta

    Copyright 2017 School Library Journal, LLC Used with permission.

  • Publisher's Weekly

    November 13, 2017
    Gloomy, chilly Seattle is an ideal setting for Solomon’s dark and thought-provoking debut novel. Fraternal twins Tovah and Adina Siegel found out at the impressionable age of 14 that their mother was diagnosed with Huntington’s disease. At 18, the twins take a genetic test to determine if either or both of them will eventually contract HD. The results prove life-altering—one girl tests positive, the other negative—and the twins flounder in different ways. Growing up they were close, but now Tovah and Adina lash out at each other and the world, looking for an escape from heartbreak. Alternating between Tovah and Adina’s perspectives, Solomon’s novel is a moving glimpse into a religious family facing the effects of a tragic disease, a rocky sibling relationship, and two Jewish girls each searching for identity and security; the fallout from the diagnosis strengthens one twin’s faith while the other rebels against it. It’s an intense story that will likely trigger some powerful emotions in readers. Agent: 14–up. Agent: Laura Bradford, Bradford Literary.

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